Village Belle and Social Standards

good advice.  I will look into it! ::rofl:: ::rofl:: ::rofl:: ::rofl::

I second, third and fourth this ....

this is all quite natural to me.  it is my nature.  these issues and my immersion poses no emotional problem for me on any level.


what has been a great problem is the reaction all along of my own and the price I have paid for thinking and acting on the impression that I could make a difference.  I could not!


that was enormously wrong and the price commensurate..the emotional consequences fraught.  that took some real effort to get over, to walk away from.


but I am not a young man anymore  I am getting old, but speaking here does not exhaust me.  hardly!  what I must do is eat when I get out of bed and keep up my nutrition regime.


the consequences of not keeping up do not ring a bell and announce themselves on arrival.  they sneak up and one can know when one is notified that one is doing crap, totally irrelevant things to the issue at hand :cheesy: :cheesy: :cheesy: :cheesy:


then 'its oh s***!  lemmih go eat something before I fall dong here.'  exasperation at oneself for ignoring ones regime, eager to go read a paper, a report or something.


bad habits hard to break, for missing meals can have serious consequences.  the problem is me and my habits, hard to break and re-format at my age.


but to be honest with you guys my job in the world is just about done.  I have made the world a better for being here.  that's how I see it.  some things I really wanted to do remain, like revenge on a number of people who did real harm to me in life... I wont likely have the time or resources to get to.


but I am cool.  all my sins I have taken into stride, did my penances and contritions.  so I am fine with the natural course of life.  I am enjoying my days while I struggle with being on time with my nutrition.  Only the revenge I have left but if I cant get to that its ok
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Sex trumps all !  :cool:

again to be honest with you...I have had a lot of that.  but sex does not factor in my life at the moment in any urgent way.  I have not been looking for it at all


since my wife died she is she has been the only woman in my life, the only one I can think of, the only one I wish were here with me now.


that has been as natural as day, the way my life and consciousness has evolved just like that, since that day. stunningly so! as natural as daylight rises. women simply  do not matter to me any more in a sexual way.


I see your point but I have no urge in that direction.  I am cool.

I understand perfectly .

I feel she wouldda want you to be Fun loving and gallavanting